oh crap IKJ
I just realized I wasted my last year of high school in Springfield.
Why?
Because that school does not even have the permission in this country as an International school.
Does that even make sense?
and because of this school, I’m gonna have to put an end to IKJ. :(
I’ve always thought and known that Springfield wasn’t a very good school, but THIS!
Or maybe through this, God’s tryin’ to tell me I’m not supposed to study in Indonesia, but overseas! :) which is a good news. :D
A man full of conscience
That man right there just came across a few pictures that reminded him of his past with one of the two girlfriends he has went out with. Details shall not be explained, but it did show him vivid images and perhaps a short clip of the things he had done with her. For a few short seconds, he felt pleasure as his hormones got more active that his thoughts went further down into something called ‘Lust’. But, right after those few short seconds ended, a very good friend of his, who was by his side even when this man was born, called him out.
His name was … Conscience.
That close friend had told him that although those times were enjoyable, though ephemeral, it was wrong. As an argument started to heat up between these two good friends, the man asked, “why?”.
Then his friend, answered, “because…it is never right to do such things before marriage.”
The man was no longer full of himself along with what he wanted to say. It got him, speechless. What had got him wasn’t what he said, but perhaps it was what he tried to imply by reminding him what he certainly knew. Even after knowing those things were wrong, the man still had carried out his desires. THAT, was what got him to sit for nearly a half an hour to rethink of his moral standards that the line he had put between what he should be doing and what he should not be doing…
That man right there, hopes, very much, that he would become a man full of conscience, so that he may live to fulfill the purpose God had given him as he was created in His Image. And a very, very … big part of him regrets doing those things. However, despite the countless guilt in him, he feels no guilt anymore for he knows His One and Only Savior had come to this world to save and forgive him from the immorality. And tonight, he just wants to praise God for what He is doing in him through what we call, conscience.
And, that’s me.
Ahh, Jazz..
Finally, something I find calming after Hymnals.
A lot of people think jazz music is for SEX?! I’m not saying I disagree, but I would rather say it’s for the listener to relax and if you relax by having sex, that’s fine by me. Hahaha. Well, I like to relax in a way that would calm me down physically, mentally and emotionally. And I’m pretty sure when people have sex, they would pant at some point, which means they’re gonna be sweating? (Haha, don’t get me wrong, this isn’t personal experience. It’s something called common sense; as your body moves more vigorously, sweat comes out of those lil pores on your body.) So, when I relax I would like to keep my body dry without a single drop of sweat.
Hmm, how did I get to like Jazz? I like things that satisfy me in ANY WAY, just like any other human would, and JAZZ happened to give me that satisfaction that people get from music! :D AND PLUS, for some reason I do not know, jazz singers’ voices calm me down. That beautiful vibration that comes from their throats is inEFFably alluring.
Oh, a slight distraction here. Whenever I hear that word or use that word -ineffable - I’ve always found it funny. The first time I heard it, I thought it meant, you know, NOT F***able. Hahahahaha and I thought, “wow, English language uses such simple yet descriptive words (cuz from what I know, even SAT words were hard to memorize, but THIS ONE was different! hahaha) until my English teacher disappointed me with the real definition of that word. *sigh*…
ANYWAYS! JAZZ! is just B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!
So, now that I started to become interested in this genre of music, I listen to a Jazz radio on my iTunes and these are some of the artists that I find very very wonderful at doing their thangs:
- Ray Charles (OF COURSE!)
- Frank Sinatra
- Louis Prima
- Dianne Reeves
There are more, but gotta listen to more of em! :)
So, that’s about it for Jazz. Maybe more when I have enhanced my knowledge in Jazz. :)
Oh btw, don’t get me wrong with the second picture. I didn’t post it up to mean that I feel alone when I listen to music, particularly Jazz, but I meant to say that I feel, you know, alone in a way that I get to be “away” from things. :)
My dad and I getting PUNCTURED!
My dad, got em all over his face, whereas I only got two on my face and a few more on ma palm. Effective stuff.
Some of the things I had done in the Art Institute of Jakarta :)
Forgive me, I’m still a beginner.
The Art of Getting By
The beginning of the movie kinda got me interested, because the boy, George seemed so innocent and it seemed like Sally and him were gonna start a relationship until Sally asked him if he was interested in her in a sexual way by asking, “have you thought of having sex with me?” And such an innocent kid that he was, he probably got disappointed in her for asking such question. Then, he decides to break his friendship with her, or maybe just take a break from that friendship which was going to become a relationship of a boyfriend and a girlfriend. When things got rough at home, he finally decided to come back to his one and only friend, who he could’ve trust, Sally. As soon as he saw her, he kissed her, thinking that he could get away from all his sadness/sorrow by getting the relationship he wanted, but turns out that in her room, Dustin, his art mentor (kinda), who had also told George that he would leave Sally alone, was trying to get into what it seemed to be a serious relationship with her. IRONY! At times I love this often-used element of literature, but these kinda times, I HATE IT! When he had promised him that he would leave her alone, he tried to get in a serious relationship with her! HATE these kinda stories. And what I hate the most is the fact that George still wanted to kiss that girl! Or maybe he didn’t know Sally had been kissing Dustin, I don’t know, but STILL! EAUHGAHGRLKNHQUWEHKJGHUALAGH!!!
Now the whole point of me writing this thing was because it reminded me of a relationship I once used to have about 3 years ago. And I’ve got to tell you, what had happened will never be forgotten. It’s such a big scar that has been made and yet it was a good experience. If I had known she had been kissin around other guys, I would be f’in disgusted to be touchin her lips with mine. You know that feeling of being betrayed by the one and only person you have been loving? Maybe you don’t maybe you do. Have got to tell you that THAT feeling sucks ..worse than shit. BUT! even after that shitty feeling that have been felt by the heart, it’s so surprising that there IS a part of me that is still expecting her to come back. I guess, it’s … the heart of love that God has given us, human beings. Perhaps because of His Image that we were made in, which helps us to understand why God had still loved us even after we had sinned and done things that went against Him. Hmm. Now THAT gets me thinking! :)
BUT ANYWAYS! I hope I will never ever watch or even worse, meet the same kind of girl again in the future. Oh and just for your information, (I know you’re gonna be readin this Dave and Deeds) ;) sadly, I haven’t had a relationship ever since. Have been very picky about the girl I want to be together with.
I just wanted to talk about the scar I had gotten. BECAUSE of this movie, that scar peeled off. :( now, THAT really hurt..
Not to mention I still have been having dreams about this unforgivable woman. I guess this is what happens when one’s heart is given 100% to another. Oh well, gotta deal with it. Ma life Ma prob. ;) but with prayer of course! :)
All about me. How I feel on certain days and how I think of certain things, I write em all, BUT at times, well, most of the time, I get really lazy to do what I say I would do. Hahaha. Oh, and I'm also writing this, because there is one small part of me that enjoys writing very much! :) So, hope you enjoy! :)
